Thursday, April 11
I sometimes think that claiming I’m ‘cursed’ might very well be worse for me than it is good. I never want to sound dramatic, or take away from others who are experiencing much worse than I do. Maybe it’s just me over thinking, but I think thats why I’ve been gone for so long. It’s not that I don’t want to blog. I do. I have so many unwritten pieces that were intended to go up on this website, but I just felt weird doing so.
Another thing- while I don’t write these for really anyone else, it just sucks knowing no one is really enjoying my writing. It’s just kind of me, out here, all alone. Which, when writing this blog, just kind of makes me feel sad. I can say this here because of this exact reason, I know no one is reading this.
But honestly, it feels good to write again, and if anything, I enjoy this and it does not necessarily matter if anyone else does, I think it just gets to me sometimes in terms of my self worth and the standards I hold myself to.
Moving on though: my classes have been really fun. I especially enjoy my slow photo class. I like all the people in the class, as well as my teacher. I finally feel excited to make art once again, and I feel like I know what direction I want to take my work in. HOWEVER…I may or may not have a slight crush on someone in this class. But knowing me and my curse…nothing will ever happen. I just sometimes feel a little too unlucky, but I’ve come to an understanding about that. Maybe I really am cursed, or maybe it’s just life running its course, but either way: it sucks.
One really awesome thing, though, is I got this amazing $10 unicorn camera and have made some cool, and slightly terrible, images with it! Here are just a few:
Claire posing while knitting at 4x speed.
Daisy, who wants to keep playing with my camera.
Balloons that never actually hug or kiss me.
Anyways, there will definitely be more of these uploaded here later! But until next blog post - I hope you all enjoy every day and smile :-)
-Campbell xx
Monday, March 11
Let’s just go ahead and say what we are all thinking: I am terrible at keeping up with this blog. BUT I have a super cool new website, which is why I have been gone for so long. I wanted somewhere i could post my artwork, as well as a website design, I actually liked.
In terms of this curse, well obviously you have missed quite a bit.
I now have a stalker, which I don't care to discuss in-depth, but the moral of the story is that the dating scene in Chicago is just not for me, it seems.
It has been way too long to go through everything in the past five months, so I’m just going to give you a quick list of some big things that have happened.
I started my 2nd semester of sophomore year
I went on three dates, all of which ended terribly
I’m enjoying ALL of my classes - especially photography!
My childhood home is getting put on the market, and I am moving all my stuff into a new apartment with my mom.
This is just the summary of what's been happening because, again, it’s just way too much to discuss on this blog. But now that I'm getting back into the grove of things, I hope to keep this blog pretty updated. However, it won’t be an everyday thing….BECAUSE:
I am going to start both a podcast and a YouTube channel! I will be posting more about these before I publish them but that’s all for today!
Love, Campbell xx
Tuesday, October 24
I know, I know...I was supposed to post another blog last week, but honestly, I've just been so busy since my last post. It's just so easy to forget to post here. Especially while I'm in the middle of my midterms and everything that's happening in terms of my personal life.
Yesterday, though, started off SO BAD but slowly improved throughout the day! Ben got his foot jammed in a revolving door, so I took him to the emergency vet. He is fine now, especially since he is on a ton of painkillers. However, he has to wear a cone when he sleeps, and he is really upset about it. Here is a photo of him last night with it on him:
This is what I like to call cone couture...OR CONETURE!!! Get it? I personally think that's really funny, but it's possible that I'm just extremely tired and think everything is funny.
But after Ben's fiasco, I went back to class late and caught up on what we were working on. But after class, things really began to look up because one of my friends and I went to Toys R Us, which can only be described as magical. Mainly because we were given free Pokemon cards and Toys R Us hat thingys.
We then opened what we got while watching Five Nights at Freddie's Lore, WHICH I AM SO EXCITED FOR THE MOVIE TO COME OUT!
But the night came to an end when I accidentally ingested bleach...it was a very bad accident, but I think I'm okay? I'm still alive, and that's a pretty good sign if I say so myself.
Today though, I have a lot to do...I still have to write a whole paper, work on my project for sculpture, FINISH my fibers project, and begin working on my presentation for my History of Alternative Manga class.
I know I can do all of this; it's just finding the motivation is really difficult. I also need to go grocery shopping and get things from the art store, but grocery shopping can wait. Even though I only have 2 cans of black beans and fig bars.
I am also trying to learn more in terms of history and geography. At my high school, we never really had a proper history class until APUSH, and I listened in that class up to around the 1940s, and then I zoned out for the remainder of the school year. Which is probably why I did not get the best score on my test.
So, I found some books that I'm going to read, including one about pop culture, because I know nothing in terms of pop culture. I can tell you anything about any book I've read or anything up to the 1940s, but when it comes to any pop culture references past that point, I'm lost. Some people use the expression "I live under a rock," but for me, I like to say: that I've lived in a doomsday bunker for the past 100 years with no access to any news or media. It's just kind of sad...because most of the time, I have no idea what my peers are talking about or what jokes they are making. AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT THIS GEN Z SLANG??? Like its just weird at this point. For example, people are using the word: "serial" instead of "serious," like am I just stupid, or does that make no sense whatsoever...?
That's pretty much all I have to say, other than I plan to get on track again with this blog, and hopefully will be able to post again tomorrow! Thank you to everyone who is still reading my blog and staying up to date with it! I truly appreciate it :)
Wednesday, October 18//Why I've been missing.
Hi friends!!! I know I've been gone for so long. First off, I wanted to apologize; apparently, a lot of you look forward to reading about my blog and what's happening with my life!
I have simply been crazy busy and not feeling super motivated to write about my life. I have been working on my art, trying to get everything done, as well as getting ahead of some of my upcoming projects and assignments.
I was also super stressed because my mom and stepdad were coming to Chicago this past weekend, and I wanted to prepare my room in time and get work done so I wouldn't have to worry about it during the weekend and I could be able to focus on spending time with them.
I will say, though, that the curse has been BADDDD. Last week there were just so many things that kept happening to me, and my health was not the best. I was feeling really stressed for no reason in particular, but it was getting to me. I've already been in school for 8 weeks, midterms are coming, and I am just having a hard time making artwork that is at its full potential.
This lack of motivation recently has, in a way, prevented me from doing work that I'm proud of. So this past week, I've been trying to force myself to get things done.
With this stress, I've been having intrusive thoughts that I should delete this blog, or my friends don't really like me, etc. Which are things that are irrational (I hope) and things I shouldn't listen to.
For this week, though, Monday was really bad in terms of my service dog, Benedict. I'm not really sure what happened, but his back leg was really hurting him. He wasn't able to walk correctly and was limping. I was EXTREMELY worried because while he is very dramatic, he doesn't do anything dramatic while working. He has always been very focused and whatnot. I do, however, think that it might have been his vest that was bothering him since it was one he was not used to wearing. But later on Monday, it was still bothering him, even when he wasn't wearing the vest. Because of this, I decided to stay home from class yesterday morning.
Staying home from class worried me, though, because I like to be there every class. I just hate seeing my grade go down or missing something important. But I also think I needed to stay home because I realized how exhausted Ben and I were.
So, in the long run, it ended up being good for both of us, and this morning, Benedict seemed to be completely healed! He is now at daycare while I'm in class playing with his friends.
One thing I did get for my curse is a Luckenbooth brooch. It's a Scottish thing, and I hope it will bring me luck. While also making the Scotts love me and trust me.
It didn't bring me the best of luck today, though, because I did realize that I ran out of my medicine, so until I can get an appointment with my doctor, I will go unmedicated...
I am so tired today, unfortunately, due to my night class that goes until 9:30 p.m. The only reason I never dropped it is that it is online, so I can just go to sleep right after. But my typical bedtime is 7:30-8:00, so I'm feeling a little sleepy since I only got around 6 hours of sleep last night.
But, since my class was online, I finally got the time to work on my digital embroidery projects. SO I FINALLY GOT SOME OF THAT WORK DONE. YAY!
Anyway, that's all I have for today! See you tomorrow!
Saturday, October 7
Hi friends! First off, i would like to apologize for being M.I.A. I received a lot of messages asking where I was and why I didn't post here.
I was gone because I'd been pretty down in the dumps. I have just been trying to focus on my overall health and school this past week!
The curse hasn't really affected me this past week, that I can recall, so that also factored into my not posting.
There were probably a lot of things that happened, but since I didn't write it down...I forgot. HOWEVER, this past Wednesday, I did learn how to weld and use a grinder.
Here is a fun photo of me in my welding gear:
I did weld metal, but it's not in my future because I am terrible at it.
BUT my sculpture teacher said I am a pro grinder, so that's something!
In full transparency, I just genuinely have not found any sort of motivation to write or even work on any of my art. So I took a short break. I am also surprised about the amount of people who have been reading this blog...its kinda of crazy that you guys are actually staying up to date with my posts. SO THANK YOUUU. I also bought a Luckenbooth brooch today because I need all the luck I can get. Especially since it's a Scottish thing...I need to get the Scotts to love me again. So I will be wearing a luckenbooth brooch from now on in the hope that my people might find me trustworthy again.
But looking on the brighter side of things: I'm working on what I'm calling a "memorial sweater" for my dad, who passed away this past May. It's for an assignment, but so far, I am incredibly proud of myself and my progress. This idea of death is kind of where my work leans in terms of theme, so I think I'm going to start pointing my body of work to that idea as a whole. So with that being said, at least I know what art I want to make!
MY MEDIA:
I know some of you were absolutely shocked by the amount of TV shows I am currently watching, but I'm just going to blame it on my ADHD. I just turn it on while working on art so it doesn't feel so lonely, but I promise I'm not just sitting there all day doing nothing but watching television.
But that is all I have for you guys today! Send me a comment if you have any suggestions or want me to talk about something specific :)
Monday, October 2
I ended up not posting yesterday because I didn't have much going on in terms of bad luck, and I had so much homework to work on. So for today's post, I will be talking about everything that happened today, as well as my newest segment (I still have no idea what to title this) about all of the media I'm currently consuming! So, I hope you enjoy reading today's blog.
Today was pretty okay except for the part where I'm cursed. My friend and I went to Dunkin Donuts. However, they were out of PUMPKIN SPICE! This means I could not get my: no-foam, five-shot, half-caf, no-foam, pumpkin spice latte, with no foam, at 210 degrees. But I did get a pumpkin donut, so that's something, except now I'm broke. My coffee ended up tasting very bad since Dunkin doesn't have the best coffee, but it does have the best pumpkin spice...
After this, though, the day was pretty good! My friend and I were in class today, where we were doing crochet (which we both know how to do), so we didn't have to learn anything new. We just sat there and watched The Vampire Diaries while working on our crochet samplers!
After that, we decided to go to Starbucks because Dunkin went so poorly. I got my PSL, and we were having a grand time. Then my friend made a really funny joke about a Halloween decoration in our dorm building. This caused the following events to unfold: THE PSL SHOT OUT OF MY NOSEEEE! which has never happened before, so this is obviously a factor of the curse :(((. Now everything smells like pumpkin spice. I want to cry and remove pumpkin spice from our planet.
MEDIA TIME:
I'm watching a billion different shows right now...but I'll still go through them all.
~SUITS
~GREY'S ANATOMY
~PRETTY LITTLE LIARS
~THE VAMPIRE DIARIES
~BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER
~LOST
I know this sounds like a LOT, but let me quickly explain. I'm watching Suits with my grandmother, so I only watch about an episode a night if I'm not too busy. I wanted to watch the most recent season of Grey's Anatomy, but I literally forgot everything that happened...so I started rewatching it early this year. I got to around season 6, but it's so much, so I haven't watched it anymore since this spring...but I'm still counting it. Pretty Little Liars is honestly something I just turn on when I want to watch something slightly spooky, but I wouldn't say I'm necessarily watching it; more like I watch an episode once a month when I get bored. My friend and I are watching The Vampire Diaries together. But it's not something I can binge since I like to be in the same episode as her, so I just play it when I need to catch up -- but it doesn't really matter since I've seen it about 500 times, like the majority of these shows I'm watching. Buffy The Vampire Slayer is one of my favorite shows. Especially since I grew up watching it with my mother. I like to watch it during the fall/Halloween time, which is why I'm watching it now! I watched the first season of Lost and loved it, but its not really a good show to watch during the spooky season. I think I might just completely binge it over the summer or springtime.
I know that was a lot...but those are the shows I'm watching; I hope I got all of them.
In terms of books, I just finished reading Jane Eyre, which was good, but not my favorite classic, and I'm currently reading Coraline for nostalgic purposes and The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes since the movie is coming out soon! I don't have anything significant to say about these books since I just started them. Okay! well, that's all I have for the blog today! see you tomorrow.
Campbell xx
Saturday, September 30
Hi Everyone! I'm sorry I didn't post anything yesterday, but it was a good thing because NOTHING BAD HAPPENED!!!
Today, however, I did not have the same amount of luck. Last night at 1 a.m. Benedict woke me up, and I had to go to the bathroom. Of course, I'm happy to take him outside, but it's just a pain to do so. I'm not sure if I necessarily classify that as a part of my curse, but to blame it on something, and for the sake of this blog, I'm going to say it is.
Anyway, this morning, I woke up extremely tired. I made my toast with honey, drank my coffee, took my shower, and then I took Benedict to the dog park.
Everything was fine, we went to the dog park, and then workers were power washing the sidewalk; Ben got scared, so we left. AS I WAS WALKING ON THE CROSSWALK...some hooligan decided, after stopping, to randomly start driving again. They then realized, I was in the middle of the crosswalk, almost hit me, and stopped like an inch in front of me.
It was crazy, and then a bunch of cars got mad at this person and started honking.
So, basically, what I'm saying is this curse almost killed me.
ALSO: if any of you did the crossword I posted yesterday, I'm so sorry. I was going to post the answers, but I forgot them. so if you were wondering if you got it right, just tell yourself you did!
I am, however, working on some new games that you can play here on my blog without having to print anything out. So if anyone has any suggestions, please let me know.
I've also started thinking about doing little segments within my blogs, talking about shows, books, or any media I am consuming at the moment. I will begin that segment in tomorrow's blog. you will also start receiving weekly emails starting tomorrow. Every Sunday, subscribers will be able to see any of the recent content I've posted and be reminded to read my blog through email!
But that's all I have to say, as these are only a few things I've experienced today! Hopefully, things stay this good for a while! :)
Thursday, September 28
Today, I honestly just feel so tired. I've been working so hard lately that I just need to rest. And even though I go to bed at 8 P.M. every night, it just recently doesn't feel like enough.
As I was walking to drop Benedict off today at daycare, it started raining. BY THE WAY, this is very far from what the weather app told me this morning. I love the rain, but with the amount of pollution in Chicago, I don't want to imagine what's coming out of the sky.
After dropping Ben off, I came back home to grab my stuff and head to class. This class is one of my favorites, but the fibers department is kept at an unbelievably freezing temperature. A small yet terrible detail I failed to remember. So, I got a jacket.
Because of this, I was sitting in class all day, tired and freezing. I just wanted to go home and watch The Vampire Diaries. But at least I had my friend Daisy to keep me company!
Daisy also gave me the grand idea to make games for everyone who reads this to play, so to test this idea out, I made a crossword. You probably are going to have to print it out to play, and you won't know if you are correct, but if anything, I think it makes it all the more exciting. Here it is:
This is the worst crossword on the planet, and I haven't even talked about one of the things that is on here, but I believe in all of you and your perseverance.
Something that I've been thinking about is: Why am I cursed? Is it just a few bad years? Am I just unlucky? I would like to hear all of you answer, but then again, I doubt anyone is reading this. So, I might have to figure it out on my own. I do, however, appreciate everyone who subscribed to my website; it really does mean a lot to me to know people care, even if there is only a small amount of you!
But now, I have to clean due to my Coraline project, pick up Ben, and finish 5 other projects. It's crazy because last year (my freshman year), I felt as if I had so much time on my hands, but now, I have none. I can barely find the time to just sit down and rest.
ALSO GUYS LISTEN UP!!!!! The Scottish hate me. Apparently, there's a phrase that the Scottish say, "Never Trust A Campbell," AND THERE IS ACTUALLY A CAMPBELL'S CURSE IN HISTORY. If you look it up, you will be shocked. I promise it wasn't me that caused this murder and curse. But I am blaming my mother for naming me Campbell. Especially since I'm very Scottish, so my own people hate me.
Due to this information, I have learned I am 100% cursed.
So, that's what's been happening! I hope you guys enjoyed reading if anyone is actually here, and I hope you have a wonderful day until I see you next!
Wednesday, September 27
Well...today started off pretty good and went quickly downhill. I began the day waking up tired and a little nervous to turn in my project. Yes, I'm talking about the evil one, my Coraline project. But I ended up finishing it and felt proud of my work. Something I've not felt in a while.
My friend and I left home early today, so we could take our time, get some Starbucks, and also get to class early so we could play Roblox.
We went to Starbucks and got our drinks, it was a little sad because they were out of the food we wanted, but I decided to choose the path of salvation and look past it. I got to class, pulled out my computer, and started Robloxing away. It was nice because everyone loved me on Roblox (I'm a master at this game, Total Drama Roblox).
Anyway, I'm getting a little carried away.
I set up my project, and it didn't look the best in its state, but that was due to the color of the wall and the pedestal I had to place my work on. But nevertheless, I persevered. I was going to show everyone on here a photo of my project, but my ego has been greatly diminished.
Like, I literally had a matching top, though...what else do these people want from me?!??!
Long story short: I don't really think my peers liked it that much, but who knows, maybe I'm just overthinking things. However, one person made a few comments that made me want to crawl into a hole and never stop crying. But for the most part, everyone else was very very supportive, including my number 1 fan: my grandma, shoutout to Nini! #queengrandma.
But now I'm home; I wrote a paper that's due tomorrow, and I want to cry because my room is a mess, thanks to this project. The amount of clay, fabric, and yarn that is spread from one corner to the other would amaze you.
And while there were probably 100 more minor unlucky things that happened in between, these are the main things my curse has caused me to endure.
I have also been trying to come up with a fun way to end these posts, but recently, I have no thoughts in my brain that are funny or clever, so I beg for someone to enlighten me. Or else I'll send my curse to get you. Don't underestimate my powers.
Tuesday, September 26
Okay, first off, I have entirely run out of groceries. I woke up this morning to a bunch of expired food in my fridge, no more coffee, and frozen spinach. I've had no time to go shopping, so I've been eating protein bars and frozen spinach. And I probably won't be able to go to the store for at least another 2 days. I finally found coffee beans in my pantry and was able to make my coffee, but I had to grind them, which was just a pain to do because my coffee grinder always gets grounds EVERYWHERE!
But other than that, the morning has been relatively good, minus the extreme stress I'm under due to the crazy amount of upcoming projects I have due for class. You might be thinking I have a paper or presentation, but no. I go to art school, so I have to make sculptures and intricate embroidery pieces within a few week's time.
One of these in particular, which is due tomorrow, has been an absolute nightmare. I tend to bite off more than I can chew with my projects. I wanted to create a sculptural installation, but it isn't turning out that way. My health has been poor recently, causing me to fall behind in terms of progress with my work. I've been working on a project surrounding the movie Coraline, one of my favorite movies (if you haven't seen it, close this tab and watch it, or else the curse will reach you). For this project, I've been trying to make a 'Coraline doll', which is a significant object featured in the movie. I finished the skeleton of the body and moved on to the head, which I planned to use clay on. After finishing the head, I realized I used air-dry clay. And a lot of it. Because of the amount I used, it would have taken 500 days to dry. So, I had to start over with oven-baked clay. Which takes forever to mold to the shape you want it to form. Not to mention, I AM TERRIBLE WITH CLAY!!! I can literally just make a circle, and it would be the worst thing you have ever seen. Anyway, this has all happened within the past week, and I just want to cry because this is due tomorrow, and I am just so far from finished. The only thing that I'm looking forward to is having this done and playing Roblox with one of my friends tomorrow. So, after my first class today, I have to go home and work like crazy to get this done. I have never been more grateful that I have an online class tonight, so I don't have to worry about going somewhere else.
I also think that I might just have to order my groceries online and have them delivered because it's storming, and I am just way too tired to carry anything other than my backpack to my dorm today.
Another thing that I have been dealing with this past week: my beloved service dog, Benedict. Ben or Benny, informally, recently got over having pink eye, and just when I think everything is back to normal...he gets a paw infection. As well as some random wound on his paw that just came out of nowhere. It was so sad because the other day, I took him to the dog park, and he literally could not run with the other dogs because of the infection. It's also wild because when we went to the vet for his pink eye, everything was fine in terms of his overall health, including his paws. So I'm just blaming the dirty Chicago sidewalks, or maybe my curse just got to him. Most likely the ladder.
I'm not going to lie, this photo was made to make him look pretty sad, but either way, he really was sad. So please send good thoughts his way so my curse doesn't wholly consume him, I beg.
But anyway, that's pretty much what has been going on in my life the past few days, but my family has also been pretty unlucky in terms of this curse.
A literal BEAR broke into my brother's car. To be fair, though, he did leave it unlocked, so it's a lesson learned. Sometimes bears just want to take a joy ride.